bad day :(

today i had a small fight with my ayah..not really a fight actually..but maybe kind a...i'm so sad..for the first time in my life, i feel like i'm really a bad daughter for my ayah..i dun mind if he refuse to fulfill my wish jz now..jz that from his word, i think that he label me as his daughter who is "xsedar di untung", which makes me damn upset..that was the most sad moment i've ever gone tru n phrases i've ever heard..am i that bad?i dunno..i'm really sorry if i am really2 "xsedar di untung"..MAYBE i dun realize it b4..i promise that i wont neglect u after i succeed..i dun wish to be a bad daughter..i wish to take care of u..if i can, i will start work now n pay every sen that u gave to me since i was born..but i cant..i havent finish my study yet..n i dun have the facilities or chance to do part time work..i know that i'm not gud enough..but i'm surprise to know that i'm that bad in ur eyes..i'm really2 sorry ayah..i promise, i'll try my best to change my attitude n be the best 4 u..pls pray 4 me ayah..i luv u.. :'(